
I think a lot of girls are probably just a bit like me. We work hard, play hard and fall for all the wrong guys. Well, maybe not wrong, but not right either. Sometimes I know I work harder than I play, and that when I get home at night I'm going home to two cats. Not that I have a problem with my cats, they are lovely. Just, maybe, in a moment of vulnerability, I'd like to have someone to comfort me. When shit happens, and you take it by yourself, it makes it that much harder.
Recently, my manfriend (the only one who ever made me breakfast, and yes guys, that's important) got arrested. things got strange and I'm still confused as to what happened, all I know is that I'm going solo once more. And once upon a very short time ago, the thought would have made my inner Badass cringe. Being alone is never where you want to be, especially when you work so hard to do everything you have to and have no one to fall back on. Not to mention the lack of a sex/love/romantic life. It's actually scientifically proven that things are easier handled when in a good relationship and people are happier. Doesn't sound to good for the working class lady. Job stress is enough, then add lack of love, and school for some, and even kids for others... Well that's just when shit gets real.
So, I'm stubbornly refusing to fall in the depressive state of loneliness. Sure, I want as much as any person to be held and comforted, or have a good time or some adventure with a partner. But damn, that's not all I want. I pride myself in being independent and always being with a man, or feeling like I should be, kind drags me down. So to me, and all my single sisters, work out that "I don't give a fuck" and the "I got this" attitude. And put on those cute clothes your to embarrassed to wear and rock who you are before having someone else join you. I personally have begun to enjoy eating ice cream right out of the carton... I'm not trying to impress anyone right now, so hey, my alter ego, Fatty McFatass is enjoying the good life.
We're beautiful on our own, and powerful when we let ourselves be. I don't need anyone to constantly assure me of my worth. I know I'm what I am, and that's enough. You love it or leave it. Until the love, I think I will just enjoy doing what I want, when I want, with no concern to how it might make the infamous him feel. :)
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